She sits alone in the couch with a coffee mug on her hand, watching a movie that she could not appreciate. It’s 4:00 am and stillness is present around her. Her eyes were gazing on the television but her mind was somewhere. She never recognized that she was on that spot for hours not until the television timer sets off. She was back in the real world. The world that reminded her about the biggest snag she is undertaking. She thought she have most of the things that would pleased her. But she was mistaken when all of the sudden she sense that something is not there and something is off beam in her supposed to be so-called contented and happy life.

She suddenly looks back how she lives her life. One by one she tried to recollect the highlights of her past. Then she shed a tear for knowing that most of them were memories she chooses to bury. And this time is her turning point that would definitely sketch her future. There is no turning back. The biggest decision in her life is about to happen. That for the first time is not influenced by the circumstances she is into. Or one of those decisions that she have make impulsively to escape pain and more pain. She thought of this a thousand times or even a million times. This must be the most mature choice she will ever do in her entire life.

Ready or not she believes in her heart that this is what she needs to answer the questions she had for such a long time. This time, she is not escaping the pain. Instead she is eager to face whatever it will bring her. It could be rejection, pain, embarrassment, frustration. But she also hopes it will bring her true bliss, selflessness, fate and true love.

She sips her cold coffee and wiped the tears in her eyes. Many people will be hurt including her self. But she stopped thinking about other people around her and for once she chased her heart. And her heart wants to believe that magic exists even in this imperfect and rough world she revolves in.